I know...kinda odd right?
But that's part of who I am.
I'm a communicator. But I'm also a letter writer.
You could ask the EX or my dear friend in England about them though personally I think the EX just blew them off and all that.
Though I will say I was usually pretty good about making sure that I didn't write angry letters. Which never does any good in my opinion. But then again by the time I started sending them I think he knew me pretty well.
Which leaves me in a spot on this one...
Do I send it?
See the New Guy, doesn't know me, not yet at least.
(And yes I wonder if I should call New Guy the Ex now since we are no longer dating but I don't think 3 dates makes you an Ex, at least not for me).
And so I wonder, should I send it.
He seems like a nice guy and the intent behind the letter is to be nice but to also hopefully clear a little bit of what seems like awkwardness between us.
Since I'm still going to his church on Saturday nights.
Which in all fairness to me isn't really "his" church since I know about 5 other people that go there as well.
People I didn't know went there before I decided to check it out.
But no less I like the church, it's a nice change of pace for me. Going to a church where no one needs anything from me. One where I'm not the one of the youth leaders, but just a girl in the congregation.
One where I can fully get into worship so easily. (I LOVE the worship there, if I got nothing else from this place I think I would go for that alone).
SO I don't intend to stop going there. At least not anytime soon.
So I hold on to my letter. One I would send, normally right away.
One that's been in my purse since Monday.
Because a part of me does still care what this guy thinks.
But I'm not sure if I care more about what the potential boyfriend thinks/thought or what the potential friend thought/thinks?
OR how it will be accepted.
If it will be accepted.
But maybe good.
So I'll keep that letter in my purse for now.
Till I get a feeling on what to do with it.
And ladies, please pray for me. Healthwise it was a rough day.
Good news though from the Doc- it's not the thyroid.