Thursday, February 17, 2011

He Loves Me....


When I first started looking for a picture for this post I wanted one of the daisy with the petals pulled, not all but some. 
But I couldn't find what I was looking for.  And that gave me a moment to think.
I don't need one like that. 
You know how it works with that game..."He loves me" (pull a petal), "He loves me not" (pull a petal),...and so on till there are no petals left on the daisy or whatever flower you have chosen.
He doesn't work that way.

There is never a time where "HE LOVES ME NOT"...and that ME includes You.
No matter where I am on this journey, no matter what I feel or think or believe.
He never is saying " I love you not". 

He is always saying I love you.

I know for me, in all my "human-ness" I often have a hard time latching onto that. 
In believing that this could really be true. That he never stops loving me.

Last year was a rough year for me. I chose to make a lot of bad choices when it came down to it. Choices that went against what he had for me. Choices that lead me to a place that I cannot imagine that he would have had me go.
But that doesn’t mean I was ever going at it alone.
That he had ever walked away from me and stopped loving me.
That he wasn’t ever there calling to me, wanting me to return.
Waiting for me to return.

Loving me through it.

This year- as I’ve been going through the emotional healing from all that took place last year I can see he is and has been with me every step of the way.

I can see his love being poured out…I can see it covering.
Proverbs 10:12 …Love covers all sins.

I’m discovering that I can feel his love as well.
I may not feel it when my focus is on me.
When I take my eyes off him, it is often then that I miss what he is doing, that I miss the things has for me.
And that eventually I miss him.

God loving us isn’t contingent on our loving him!
(THANKGOODNESS right!- I know I fall so short on all of that so very often).
But just like our relationships here on Earth, our relationship with him needs to be nurtured as well.
Not neglected. Tended too. 
We need to water it like we water our flowers, tend to the soil with prayer and reading our Bibles.

Yet, even when we don’t do these things he doesn’t stop loving us. But I discover so much more about how he loves me, how he cares for me, how he wants the best for me when I am nurturing that relationship with him. When I’m seeking his face, getting to know him better.

I know I never have to question if “HE LOVES ME” he always does and always will.
And I am so thankful to be on this journey to find out just how much he does love me.

I hope you take the time in your walk with him to find out how much he loves you too.


Sheryl said...

I'll never look at a daisy the same way again! Thanks for this great perspective.

S.I.F. said...

Thank you for this friend... I don't know if you have any idea how much I needed to read it!

Bonnie Gray said...

There is only so far we can fall, even if it feels like we could fall no further. When really, we only fall into His love, when our's is spent. I really love your journey, Leanna. And how you're walking through it as you are by faith.