Tuesday, January 25, 2011

I wish...

Today I wish February 3rd was here already.

That's the day of my next doctors appointment.

The last few weeks I've been doing a different form of writing.

Writing on my little calendar.

Every little pain, every little abnormality...

All so I can go in and have a full and accurate "account" of what's going on for her. 

In some ways I wish I had started it sooner.

In other ways I wish I didn't have to do this at all.

In some ways it's pretty scary. 

Tonight was a rough night in terms of what I had to write down.

And I'll admit there were more then a few tears.

Not that all of them were from that but most of them were.

Almost all of them were. 

But it will be ok. 

One way or the other.

It just has to be.

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