Tuesday, April 6, 2010


(posting from the phone, a first)

Tonight I feel unloveable.
And while I know it's essentially a choice to feel this way, it is how I feel. I have a lot of whys resting on my chest. A lot of "I just don't get it".
Maybe -well no maybe- I'm having a bit of a pity party. (not that I have a real right to all things considered.)
Maybe I know that God does have a plan for me- a why for all of this but maybe tonight I don't care.
I need a good cry and that's what I plan to do. Cry-& cry out to God as well- asking for peace & patience in all these things weighing on me tonight.
After all that's the safest place to cry. With Him.
It's even safer than here.

1 comment:

S.I.F. said...

When I was younger I almost got the word "unlovable" tattooed down my spine.

I would have hated it for the rest of my life.

You are not unlovable, you are just finding you right now. At least, that's what I tell myself in regards to why I am still alone when technically I could really use my "Mr. Right" right now. There is a reason and a purpose, and He does have an amazing plan for you. There just may be an amazing partner in the works too!