I wrote this last night, it's very heart felt. And a large part of me wants to send this.
I should mention that he and I are currently not communicating. At all...no phone calls, emails, texts (now in fairness he probably believes I no longer have texting).
But I am choosing not to call, text, email or really any other form of communication. Because one, I'm stubborn. And by stubborn that means I want him to be the one to contact me. And then two, I don't know if I want to talk to him. Part of me varies on the "I hate you feelings" and the "broken hearted feelings".
But at the same time I don't want to give up on him, on his life, on his soul. So I'm torn.
Do I send it or not?
What are your thoughts?