Thursday, October 14, 2010

Choosing and casting...

So I had a doctor's appointment today,  actually it was a follow up appointment from last week which was a follow up appointment for testing from the week before.

Today I didn't get very good news from the doctor. 

Not that I expected good news,  you know sometimes you something is wrong even when you don't know what that something is.

And I had a feeling.

I don't fully know what the outcome will be, since today's test results well, resulted in more tests, that I won't get the answers to till Monday after noon but I'm hanging in there.

Even though I'm scared.  I'm choosing to have faith and believe that God will work all things out to His good.  Even if I don't understand it. 
Even if I don't end up liking the results. 

I know he has a plan.

And his ways are good and true. 

So I'll keep praying, keep my Kleenex handy and hold onto the following verses.

1 Peter 5:7
Cast all your cares upon Him for He cares for you.

Matthew 11:30
For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

Proverbs 3:5
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.

the only other option is giving up and I'm to stubborn for that. 


Alyssa Rose said...

Oh, Leanna, I hope that the test will come back in a positive way instead of the negative...being that I don't know what the tests are about. But know that I am thinking of you and that you are in my prayers. He loves you with an everlasting love. <3

In His hands,
Alyssa Rose

S.I.F. said...

I'm praying for you too friend... Lots of love coming your way!

Leanna said...

Thank you for praying Ladies.
I'll tell you here in the comment (I don't want it on the BIG part of the blog) I have an abnormal cyst on my left ovary.
Had to have blood taken yesterday to find out if it's the big C or not but even if it's not that there's the possiblity that it's still not good. I'd have to have the ultrasound done every 3mths to keep an eye on it or do a laperscopy (sp?) which could cause other problems as well.
There's pain involved so I'm not sure which option is the best at this point.
I'm just trying to wait patiently and rest in Him while I do so.
I think I must have been one of those kids when I was younger though that would keep popping their head up at nap time to look around. So it's a struggle to just wait but I know that He knows what is going on and I'm trusting that all this will bring glory to him no matter the results.
Thank you again for praying- love you!

Abbie H. said...

Hate to hear this Leanna. I just had a large (benign, but we didn't know it until after my partial mastectomy) tumor removed from my breast in June. I have a family history of breast cancer and the whole thing made me so afraid, scared, petrified, and all the words associated with that feeling! Praying for you and your upcoming decisions, tests, doctor's appointments, etc.

I've been meaning to email you and find out how the study is going for you. I know you have been going through a lot lately emotionally (by stalking your blog) and you have been on my mind a lot.

Praying for some comfort to come your way!