Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Stepping Down

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How do you know when it's time?  Time to step down, to move on, to take another path.
To leave the thing that you are currently doing.
No matter how much you once enjoyed it.
No matter how "GOOD" or "GODLY" of a thing it is.

And how do you know when it's just a rough season?
When you need to press in and hold on?
That no matter how much you want to step down from that good thing you need to press on
and press through.
Fighting to stay vs. just going on.

I'm wrestling with the decision on stepping down from working with the youth at my one church.
(For you newbies- I have 2 churches I attend regularly)
I've been enjoying the "new" church more and more these day.
I feel like I learn a lot there and I have a deep desire to get plugged in more with the things going on.
The problem, their cell groups are on Wednesday nights.
So it limits me on how involved I can get.
Since I'm at my other church on Wednesdays with the youth there.

And honestly, youth has been tough this season. 
Or SR High YP is new and it's been an adjustment.
The kids have been harder to work with lately. 

But at the same time I love my kids.
And I have a hard time seeing my self not involved with youth.
And there are kids in my current group that I care deeply about.
Ones that need love, compassion, protection, and just someone to know that they are worth something.
They need someone to value them.
And I want to show them they are valued.
Not only by me but also by God.
They are the reason I stay.

Until I feel clearly God telling me to go,
they will be that thing that keeps me there.
That driving force to leave my phone on and answer the 1am text messages.

Even if I very much at times want to step down.

Psalm 37:23
The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD, And He delights in his way.

1 comment:

S.I.F. said...

That's a hard one friend... I honestly don't know how you juggle commitments at 2 different churches in the first place. You are amazing! Still... I think if you're meant to move on, you'll know. Just keep looking for those signs!