And when I opened my email and saw Bonnie's subject Never Been Kissed: When You Wonder If You’ll Ever Find “The One” I thought "I just can't do this today".
Not because I shy away from the subject, generally speaking I have no issue with all of that.
Normally it's something I enjoy encouraging people (ok, girls more than anyone) in, that they will find that person, that God does have someone for them, that he's better than what they probably imagine, but that he'll also be human.
But it's been a raw week, with constant and consistant pain. Physical pain.
And then add to it that I've had a wedding every weekend for the last 4 weekends. Three of which were "work" weddings, so I'm still looking, sorting and editing through probably at least a thousand wedding photos now.
So the whole, "LOVE THING" has me a little worn out.
And I'm pretty sure at this point I don't ever want a wedding (I do want the marriage just not the wedding).
Plus I don't know if I believe in the whole thing of "The One".
Obviously I haven't found "My One" if that's how things work.
I do have faith that the right person will come along in the right time.
I just don't know when that will be.
I do know I need to trust God in this process.
(Just like every other process)
And wait for him.
And Trust him.
That he will bring that person.
(Or take the desire for me to marry away though at 31 I think if that were going to be the case it would have happened by now).
For now though I will wait as patiently as possible.
And buy as many shoes as I'd like since there is no husband to tell me no.
New King James Version
Wait on the LORD;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the LORD!