Right now, this very moment I'm frustrated.
Not with a person but with my body.
My heath.
See I'm training for this half marathon.
I'm so close to the date of the run...March 31st.
Today, March 19th I need to go and run my 11 miles.
But I feel horrible.
My back is just throbbing, my stomach is cramping and I kinda feel like I want to vomit.
Not real conductive for running 11miles.
I just want to sit down and cry.
I've even taken my 4 (800mg) of Ibuprophen. And still hurt like this.
I'm frustrated now that my body doesn't seem to want to let me do what I want to do.
I just want some answers.
And to be healed.
It's been 2 years now since the problem started and we still don't know what it is.
The pain seems to be getting worse.
Yes I'm switching doctors.
I think this one is done.
She thinks she's tried everything and basically thinks we won't know unless we do a hystromecty.
And neither of us is willing to do that yet.
And she doesn't want to look at some of the things I want to look at.
So....
I'm getting refered to a Gastro Intestinologist, even though I don't think that we will find anything there. You never kow though.
And once I get that referal I'm calling a few other doctors to get a 3rd and 4th opinion.
Someone out there has to be able to help right?
Right?
*** Side note***
I do believe God can and will heal me.
I'm claiming it every day with every pain moment.
I just have to wait for his timing.
And I do believe he has a reason for all of this.
One day hopefully I'll know what that is.
Not with a person but with my body.
My heath.
See I'm training for this half marathon.
I'm so close to the date of the run...March 31st.
Today, March 19th I need to go and run my 11 miles.
But I feel horrible.
My back is just throbbing, my stomach is cramping and I kinda feel like I want to vomit.
Not real conductive for running 11miles.
I just want to sit down and cry.
I've even taken my 4 (800mg) of Ibuprophen. And still hurt like this.
I'm frustrated now that my body doesn't seem to want to let me do what I want to do.
I just want some answers.
And to be healed.
It's been 2 years now since the problem started and we still don't know what it is.
The pain seems to be getting worse.
Yes I'm switching doctors.
I think this one is done.
She thinks she's tried everything and basically thinks we won't know unless we do a hystromecty.
And neither of us is willing to do that yet.
And she doesn't want to look at some of the things I want to look at.
So....
I'm getting refered to a Gastro Intestinologist, even though I don't think that we will find anything there. You never kow though.
And once I get that referal I'm calling a few other doctors to get a 3rd and 4th opinion.
Someone out there has to be able to help right?
Right?
*** Side note***
I do believe God can and will heal me.
I'm claiming it every day with every pain moment.
I just have to wait for his timing.
And I do believe he has a reason for all of this.
One day hopefully I'll know what that is.
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