To keep moving...instread of standing still
To hang on...instead of letting go
To hold back the tears....when all I want to do is cry
To admit that I was hurt...when fear wants me to keep it in
To remind myself that I'm worth more....instead of allowing my thoughts to say otherwise
Life can be hard, and a struggle to keep walking.
I'll admit I've fallen a lot this year and it's taken it's toll on me.
On my heart.
But I know that things can get better and they will eventually.
That the wounds will heal. That He will heal me.
He knows
Even though I may not be smiling....I will smile again
That even if I stand still...there will be another time of movement
That it's ok to cry....he's counting my tears
That I'm not to fear....he's my loving father who is holding me safe.
He whispers to me, "you're royalty, my daughter, I love you & you are worth the greatest treasure...even if I don't feel that way.
Bonnie from Faith Barista let me know that the Jam session for Thursday will be how does your faith affect your personality?
I think that my faith is so deeply intertwined with who I am it can't not affect my personality.
It gives me hope and peace. Joy in struggles.
While things aren't always good, or easy there is still a foundation at the core of who I am.
My faith helps me to think too.
Before I speak (though honestly this isn't ALWAYS, I am human) it helps me to think, how will it be taken. How it could be perceived.
It changes how things affect me because I long to have a heart that longs for the things that He longs for.
It affects how I think of and forgive others, even if they don't ask for it. Even when I think they should.
But over all it helps me to just be me...to relax and know I am ...flaws and all...the person He created me to be.
He loves me as I am. He loved me where I was in the dirt and grime before I knew Him. When I still stumble and fall in the pig sty and get dirty again, He lets me know that He still loves me and will pick me up and brush off the dirt and hold me close again. He rejoices in the steps I take toward him, even in the littlest ones, because He loves me.
Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing i desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Psalms 73:25-I6
